wow, what a day

well folks, they say wednesday is hump day. i've taken a disdain towards wednesday for the past many moons because it's been Casey's school night so he doesn't get home until 9:30 or so, and it makes for a long day keeping a toddler entertained (and a baby alive). but #1 he took his test last week, so no school until august. RAH RAH! but #2 he has a job being tested tomorrow (elevators are tested before people are allowed to ride in them). so monday he was on call - had to rescue trapped passengers, etc. and didn't come home until 7:30 ish. tuesday he left at 5 am and stayed late working on his current job, didn't get home until 8. today, hump day, i don't plan on him coming home until sometime tomorrow afternoon. put it all together and whadda-ya get ... one heck-of-a frazzled momma.


so, my day, because i know you're all so enthralled with what keeps me going from one minute to the next. Gwen woke up at 2:48 am for her 4:00 feeding, and decided to stay up until a wee past 4, just to clarify that this was the 4 o'clock feeding. thanks. Add woke up at 6:30 and was quite pleasant ... until 7. a bit of breakfast, nursing, primping, packing, and scuttling later we were at Addi's pre-school - mega-fun with Auntie Dina today! that's 9-11, but i had my 6 wks. post-partem check-up at 9:45 so my pal Cassie watched Addi at school while i jetted off. on the way back from the doc i decided to stop and get Cass a Diet Coke (her favorite) as a thank-you gift. i got a liter bottle and shuffled gleefully up to the register - shuffling because i was carrying Gwen in her infant carseat. i handed the lady my debit card and she points to a sign - debit card minimum of $5. ah, so junk. so two more drinks and a tyrading Gwen later we were headed back to Laie.

by noon we were home and Addi was down for her nap before 12:15. Gwen was still sleeping as a result of the lullaby of a v6 Honda Element, so i jumped in bed as quickly as i could and snuck in a 20 min. nap before she woke up. after more nursing and lunching, and some playing outside in the water, Gwen had had it and wanted sleep (which doesn't come so easy seeing as Addi is seriously officially the loudest homosapien on the planet ... seriously)



so here's the climax of all this rambling (i've just been building up - setting the atmosphere) i'm nursing Gwen and being dragged into a pitosin induced slumber. my motherly auditory sensors are peeping in on Addi from time to time ... playing with the stroller, getting into stuff under the fishtank, dumping out her toy box, running laps from front door to bathroom door, climbing on the toilet and squirting some lotion in her hands, then i nodded off for exactly 2 minutes (because you're watching the clock the whole time you're nursing, you know, so it was 120 seconds or less). Addi is quiet. no way she's asleep, so i start to imagine the worst thing she could be doing. i concluded it would be her sitting on the arm of the couch, bottle perched between index finger and thumb, nipple down, as she concentrates so intently on the drops of watered-down apple juice puddling on the laptop. i sighed.

then another thought ... no, the worse thing would be if she suddenly developed the skill and courage to open the front door and run out to the street ... PANIC. that's when Gwen's heaven was destroyed as her mouth was left empty and i put myself back together while running gladiator style out the OPEN FRONT DOOR. yep, it was open ... awesome. i'm glad she can check that one off her list of things to learn.

so outside the first thing i see is the toybox that i heard getting dumped out 15 minutes ago. a big green toybox, verifying my worst nightmare. then sandals scattered here and there (Addi is obsessed with shoes). and at the end of the front neighbor's front yard, AKA the street, there is Addi, wearing my slippers, contemplating the same question as the chickens of the world.

we had a wonderfully wet time-out together, me crying out of fear of almost losing my first-born, her out of fear of me being the cause of me losing my first-born.

"how does a woman cope with all of this stress" one might wonder.

cookies.

i went to foodland and bought cookies and by the time i got home, that wandering 5 minute drive from Laie to Hau'ula, 3 of the 10 cookies were gone. i don't know who stole them, but they were crazy sneeky, because the container was sitting right next to me the whole time....


any suggestions on some less-fattening stress relief? or even more importantly, how to keep my toddler inside the house?