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it happened saturday.

i was driving along hau'ula homestead road contemplating some major life decisions on the horizon. it was sunny. the girls were happy. we were going home soon to have lunch and nap time. 

but for now i was driving.

thinking.

praying.

well, to be completely honest, i would say God was eavesdropping. i wasn't necessarily directing my thought towards heaven, but heaven decided to chime in it's 2 cents. 

and then life fell into place. i knew which way was right. everything was laid before me so clearly and life seemed crystal through tear smeared eyes ...

and then a censure ...

i knew who i was and who i should be and saw quite clearly the difference between the two. 

and i woke up.

springing from a haze i've been walking in for nearly a year, it seems.

and life is fresher.

better.

greener.

my girls are more beautiful. my husband more handsome. my life more fulfilling. my existence more purposeful. my forgiveness more willing. my heart less broken. my love overflowing.

thank you, Father, for not forgetting me. and for accepting my gratitude via prayer

... and blog.