you can re-live it all here.
it was me embarking on a more active lifestyle.
i was changing, and this hike was the beginning.
i wanted to run the honolulu marathon in 2010, and a friend of mine was going to help train me.
the hike was on a wednesday. the marathon training started monday.
addi still talks about it, and how she doesn't want to "hide in the mountains" ever again.
i still can't run, jump, etc...
i haven't regained my full range of motion.
it still hurts.
somedays a lot, somedays a little.
basically my busted ankle has become a part of my life.
it goes where i go.
in the mornings when i try to spring out of bed it hits me...
it still hurts.
when i'm wrapping up the day, walking from the living room to the bedroom, it slows me...
it still hurts.
but really, and i do mean really, it is nothing...
because
six months ago today my friend nat was starting day 2 at the hospital.
you can re-live it all here.
she was embarking on a new life.
their family was changing, growing, and she was in utah showing off her little gavin.
she came to the hospital on a tuesday. she didn't leave the hospital until thursday week.
her boys still talk about it.
sometimes she just wants to run.
she's still regaining "normal".
it still hurts.
somedays a lot, somedays a little.
because now she is the mother of a child she can no longer hold.
and that grief goes where she goes.
in the mornings, before she gets out of bed
it still hurts.
and at the end of a long day.
it still hurts.
time passes differently when one is grieving. certain dates on a calendar hurt. time is marked in days, then weeks, then months... eventually years, since the life-changing event.
and 6 months is a big marker. i'm sure it's a hard marker.
i don't know nat's pain. i only know my own grief in her behalf.
and i do know this...
healing takes time.
physically.
spiritually.
emotionally.
and nat still needs our support.
our prayers.
our thoughts.
our comments, emails, texts, phone calls...
our service.
and our participation.
in her owns words...
GET YOUR FREAKING
because one was enough.
5 comments:
Wow. I can't stop crying. What a touching video. I can't imagine their pain, but I hope that over time it gets just a little easier to deal with.
This is such a beautiful post Stef. Healing does take forever, whatever it is you are healing from. We are for sure going to get our vaccinations, I have to wait a while though, no vaccinations for 6 months. Natalie is lucky to have someone like you for a friend, someone who wont forget about her even though its been a while. Because it does take forever to heal...
Thanks for posting this Stef. If is very touching and I honestly cried when I read it. I'm so glad that you can be that friend that remembers and helps others to remember also. Your post is very true, healing in any form takes time and sometimes that "time" seems to take forever to come.
wow steph, that was 6 months ago already? it still hurts me, and im just a mere aquaintance of nats, i cant imagine how much it still hurts her. thanks for sharing.
bummer about your leg too.
Thank you for the reminder. It's easy for us to go on with our lives and forget about those that deal with certain pains everyday. What a touching video- did you create it? All I want to do now is go hold my 3 precious children...
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